Yul Brynner - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

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Yul Brynner - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia'

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Party Rock People - LMFAO - Party Rock People

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Party Rock People - LMFAO - Party Rock People

Blues Clubs, Bars & Live Music Venues in Florida Fla FL Miami Fort Lauderdale

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Blues Clubs, Bars & Live Music Venues in Florida Fla FL Miami Fort Lauderdale

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Can't Be Unseen - Dicklet.

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Can't Be Unseen - Dicklet.

pokemon to a new extreme

Robert De Niro and Al Pacino - David Letterman Top 10

2010-09-01T11:09:00.000-07:00

for my actor folk lolPublish Post

Late Show - Top Ten Things Jim Carrey Will Always Say Yes To

2010-09-01T10:58:00.000-07:00

funny very funny

Late Show - Will Smith vs. Son

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Late Show - Jennifer Aniston Ties Up Dave

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YouTube - Chris Rock on The Late Show with David Letterman

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YouTube - Chris Rock on The Late Show with David Letterman

chris rock!

Hipster Street Style - the Fashion Spot

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Hipster Street Style - the Fashion Spot

Young Jeezy - Lose My Mind ft. Plies

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backtracking the life A process called justification. a hindered love life.

2010-08-22T20:24:00.000-07:00

My whole life I have had abandonment issues...one heart ache after another...all derived from women and friends in my life. I was never a normal boy whatever normal was. my greatest love was my grandmother. she started living with my family when i was born which was sometime in September. I loved her with all my heart she was like my nanny McPhee without the ugliness. she was the glue that held my already dysfunctional family intact. she was my everything. then one day she left sometime when i was in school that Friday afternoon. my whole world was broken, and i cried for hours as i cried out her name but she was no where to be found, my respect for her had left and for women hindered. I later found out why she left and a selfish reason at that. my family needed her more at the moment and for that I'm null to your pain.

Later a year living in those apts, were ok, i had just settled into first grade where i met david and brandy my oldest friends in a lifetime. 24 years on my bday we've been friends for 18 of them. amazing. even they disappeared from one time or another: brandy moved shortly after a half a semester. then i was there with a friend jerry basin and he was cool and david was still around which was great i ended up with a Girlfriend shortly after that which was Ashley Heart my first ever GF and a red bone too. my first relationship was a interracial one, she was always horny especially for a young girl, she gave me my first kiss at 6 years old. and later that day i met another girl and her name was Jennifer, jennifer was the girl next door but more across the street in a duplex apartment at that. she was awesome. she was just as horny at 6 and especially at 7, i know as my reader your probably confused right now, remember i was as old as they were but they were naughty, Jennifer was a tomboy latin white in complexion but looked so cute and really dug me and but then she broke my heart and moved away, she wanted to stay together but i couldnt bare the separation, i really liked her so i broke her heart before she broke me, and she moved away and remained a ghost. so having another girlfriend at the time I devoted my time to school friends and ashley heart, i found it funny how she had a list of dudes to date in class and i tried her and she put me at the head of the list to date me lol it was a memorable moment for me. then my parents confronted me and told me that we were moving...i was crushed.

So i lost contact with all my fulford elementary friends, and wound up in north miami beach coming from vistory pool aka the dead mans pool. it was a gangster-filled environment going to a suburban area of uleta park a sublet of north miami beach to a school called sable palm elementary. my first day at school was memorable, i had reunited with one of my best friends brandy. she was stunned as we analyzed the possibilities of meeting again, but we had different class so it wasnt that momentous but it made things easier...but i was already scarred from the earlier mishaps and it only got worse, i made friends with the neighborhood kids, zach, his sister jay jay, kenny, his brother daniel, and david mitchell, they were cool kids. inseparable. but not all things are meant to last, jay jay became like the neighborhood hotty after this girl Lauren, a hot high school chick moved away, jay jay was into discovering herself as well as all the boys in the click, we didn't mind, but i became jealous and started to really like for myself, and didn't wanna share anymore, so i did the dishonorable thing and ratted them all out, i felt bad and things all ended and they moved away. one at a time, more friends came but all went away gradually. i grew so cold hearted as i felt so alone,thinking that everyone in my life will one day leave me. I grew hate and distrust and so funneled it into my love life.

In third grade i met Jaiphet in Mrs. Diaguez's class. she was a pretty good looking girl and was into me but i shunned her and gave her to my friend Tit,o still my friend till this day BTW...same old Tito all the time, lol. he took her off my hands and in the end i grew jealous because i started liking her but lost her because of my abandonment issues. it seemed like that throughout my life. the more i grew the lonelier i got. i didnt know what love was anymore, i grew a nasty temper and attitude towards friends, girls, and family. I look back in my life and i cry. i have wrong so many people in such a time span of years. in third grade summer school was ms. hall's class she lacked personality but was cool. i met a girl named Victoria Lambert, she was cute and taller then me and really skinny, but i was threatened again about her crush on me, so i pushed her away and throughout my school years i treated her bad, but she was always so nice to me i ended up curious about her and embarrassed to myself of my secret crush on her. i was a totally nasty person then and i look back and i wanna make it right with everyone especially her. i feel my actions directed impacted hers and everyones life and i intend to repair these relationships. my love life was in shambles one year after another even today,

...fast-forwarding after high school,

4 years ago i met a girl named Loxy and she was bad ass everything i ever wanted in a girl i met her through a friend named Eliza Jimenez also another gr8 chick and good friend and who i met through Bryant Camara my homeboy, but her friend had my heart, she liked everything i liked even more impressive was her knowledge on corvettes and her tattoos and piercings on special places, that girl had my heart then one day she disappeared with no goodbye or anything i never felt so alone, i cried a little after that and i miss her a lot, i tried looking for her but i never saw her again and i sometimes i still think about what could of been... i will never forget our first "Study date thing" she told me about this new lime green bra she got and she showed me and i knew i liked her a lot not for the pervyness but for her boldness because to me i was an idiot telling my stories lol and we were at aventura mall writing her paper i noticed she was staring at me the entire time but i was nervous and couldnt stop talking, if i ever had the chance to see her again, oh never mind i consider her the one that got away, her friend knew little about us cuz at the time they were feuding but still i liked her im still friends with eliza even though i barely get to see her...two years ago i was seeing someone named Evelyn McCoy, she was black american and she was pretty radical and was the only girl to ever stand up to me after my wife's death in 2008. i wronged her twice and i feel really bad after all that and now i dont speak to her because of my shame as a man, she was kool, different and i treated her like a 2nd rate citizen and for that i can never look her in the eyes but i am sorry. now i didn't mention my wifey, her name was Jennifer, strange coincidence i think not remember i mentioned a Jennifer earlier in my life i met her randomly again in a store i was working in i was a waiters assistant, lame job BTW, never again, and she was on a date and i was serving her table and she saw my tag and asked me some questions

...fast-forwarding Guy on date 0 Vader 1! i won that battle. she was the love of my life, the backbone of my very existence. i loved her truly she was my first mistress in childhood lol and first wifey in adulthood. she died of breast cancer in 2008. I feel she was my unfinished love. as she left me to go to a better place. which i dealt with and i am OK now. now i live a life of sorrow regardless of my possessions i fear abandonment of people and thats my Achilles heel. im justified also condemned to a life of loneliness. and im sorry to all of you i have ever wronged.

Working out for the best

2010-08-20T15:53:00.000-07:00

today i had to appeal my suspension to take classes its this type of drama that limits a person potential ba humbug

What I am, a nihilist.

2010-08-18T13:25:00.001-07:00

Nihilism is the philosophical doctrine suggesting the negation of one or more meaningful aspects of life. Most commonly, nihilism is presented in the form of existential nihilism which argues that life is without objective meaning, purpose, or intrinsic value. I am a Nihilist.

Awesome, This is My official blog site

2010-08-17T21:51:00.000-07:00

this is for my sanity because i can be a handful. lol. this is for all my crazy adventures and thoughts and feelings and my random outburst which i find so hard to contain. lol

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Yul Brynner - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Party Rock People - LMFAO - Party Rock People

Blues Clubs, Bars & Live Music Venues in Florida Fla FL Miami Fort Lauderdale

whoa

Can't Be Unseen - Dicklet.

Robert De Niro and Al Pacino - David Letterman Top 10

Late Show - Top Ten Things Jim Carrey Will Always Say Yes To

Late Show - Will Smith vs. Son

Late Show - Jennifer Aniston Ties Up Dave

YouTube - Chris Rock on The Late Show with David Letterman

Hipster Street Style - the Fashion Spot

Young Jeezy - Lose My Mind ft. Plies

backtracking the life A process called justification. a hindered love life.

Working out for the best

What I am, a nihilist.

Awesome, This is My official blog site